partridge
partridge
Aug. 06, 2006, 10:46 am
listening to alan partridge now and i have a huge grin on my face. am very reminded of james (badham, not the other one!)(the former bracket was for lin's benefit, haha) and i've just realised how i miss everyone back in york. was on msn with james for a good hour last night, sunny called yesterday and i spoke to nick two days ago, and it seems like it's only when i hear their voices again that i miss their presence incredibly. i miss george too, and i might call her tonight just to surprise her :) 5 and a half weeks till i go back! surprisingly enough, i'm not particularly looking forward to going back anymore. i feel daunted by the prospect of my second year. i'll have to say though, that i do feel a small shiver of anticipation when i think of the freedom i'll be getting back to, of doing what i want when i want.
got my marks on friday! i took two papers at the end of term and got the marks for energy in cells... for some reason, the evolution marks will only be known in september. i'm probably better off not knowing those marks though. ha. am a dunce at evolution! am incredibly pleased at my 81 for energy in cells, which was quite unexpected because i was... distracted over the last two weeks of term *grin* didnt get quite as much studying done as i should have, so the nice mark really is quite a pleasant surprise. nick (who was of course similarly distracted, hee) pulled off his philosophy paper with an 86. so we're both tremendously pleased as punch! i'll need a repeat performance of this next month though, seeing as how i've given myself all of 3 weeks to study for 5 papers. go me.
and i end my incredibly self-absorbed post here
money-wasting
Aug. 02, 2006, 4:20 pm
but all the miles that separate
they disappear now when i'm dreaming of your face
i can't really decide if time has passed quickly or not. am already into my third week of attachment, which works out to about 13 days of having wasted taxpayers' money. seriously, the amount of agarose i use unnecessarily... and the shit pipetting i do... it all adds up, and everyday i reckon the amount of money i waste runs in the hundreds. or maybe i exaggerate. then again, maybe i don't. had a delivery for two vials of antibodies today, each vial 1.5 ml. total cost? $1380. oh, and they do charge GST too. haha. and the GST was enough to buy me this very pretty dress i have my eye on :)
the guilt and burden of lying is taking its toll on me. dreamt two nights in a row about confrontations with my father. also had dad saying to me (not in a dream, for real!) whilst looking me in the eye, "dont lie to us. if you lie, you'll break your mummy's heart and your daddy's heart."
perhaps i'm being unfair about this, but was the use of 'mummy' and 'daddy' intentional, to increase the mileage of this guilt trip? but i know all too well i'm in no position to say anything about it. those same words would have a completely different effect if i didn't actually have anything to be guilty about. and as it is, i have more than a fair share of things to feel guilty about. like i told andee today, once you start a lie, there's no getting out of it. you just build on it.
speaking of andee, good luck with edinburgh! and i still expect you to send some scottish boys my way. kilts and all, please. thankyouverymuch.
should be out clubbing with malley, sau and aimee today. why am i not? because life is cruel and when i finally have the chance at cheese-free clubbing, throbbing headaches and terrific sneezes strike. will amble off to sleep now. tomorrow brings another hard day of money-wasting.
i'm packed and i'm holding, i'm smiling
she's living, she's golden, she lives for me
says she lives for me
driving again, yay!
Jul. 29, 2006, 6:56 am
it's so very nice to get back to driving again. was very stressed this morning behind the wheel, but after a good two hours' worth of driving and parking, i've finally regained a little bit of the old confidence with the car. lin, that (possibly) means yes to late night suppers! or i could pick you up at sph and take you to serangoon gardens for food. haha you're working at MY bit of the island now! see. after work, wait to be picked up and then go for dinner. who needs boyfriends when you've got charmain? (subject of course, to the availability of the car. 4 drivers in the family sharing 1 car! guess who's last priority? haha) it's also nice to drive because i've been feeling muchly jealous of juniors who have been able to drive and who're probably driving better than me now, because i've been out of practice for 9 months!
also, matt and nick refuse to believe i can drive. and they cannot imagine me sitting behind the wheel of a car. and they really dont mean it as a joke, just to tease me... i think they really do mean it, in all honesty. charmain driving a car? the same girl who picked up a kettle and asked 'is this a kettle?' driving? naaaaah. it's all very offending and annoying, and i'm determined to prove otherwise. grr. will drive michael around when he comes to singapore! then he can go back and tell my boys that i CAN INDEED DRIVE. even though i may do stupid things with kettles.
ok, off for vball. daddy was going to give me the car to drive to spe, but my mum had an appointment, so it's 153 and a very long walky-walk for me. boo.
rambleramble
Jul. 28, 2006, 4:26 pm
i've stopped yearning for york. mengxin, i do suppose i'm the one who's gotten it the wrong way around: i was a complete basketcase in the first week but now i've settled in. it's pretty much in the same way i was when i first got to york... the homesickness didnt set in till week 2 for most people, but i was immediately homesick the minute i touched down, and was fine after about a week. so yes, no more pining for york or for the italian boy who smells of chicken rice. you learn to adapt, forget, move on.
and so my whole first year now seems to have been nothing but a dream. even the photos seem unreal. it's a bit sad really, that after 3 (hopefully) glorious years in uni, it will all seem to have been nothing more than a very long, very wonderful, too-good-to-be-true dream.
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