so much wasted in the afternoon
so much wasted in the afternoon
Mar. 12, 2006, 8:05 pm
thrilling news of the week: the boys have won the busa trophy! am so very happy for them... wish i could've been there to see them win the silverware :) think we might possibly be the only competitive club to actually win anything for york this year... so yay!
rather than succumb to loneliness and boredom, i decided to venture out in the snow yesterday to go to town on my own, run a couple of errands, have a breath of fresh air. third time in town for this week, second time alone. yes, have been trying hard to distract myself. bought daffodils in an effort to cheer myself up. they haven't bloomed yet, but i think the bright yellow petals will be just what i need. and hopefully by the time they've died, something else inside my heart will have died too. my get-well flowers to myself. oh and bought 4 books from the minster bookshop too (this lovely, quaint 2nd hand bookshop with narrow creaky stairs and lovely little rooms) to keep me company. i deserve the treat. why? because i've been forgiving, understanding and concilliatory (am positive that i have spelt that wrongly). i also do not deserve the treat because i've been hasty, naive, silly, callous and cold, but the penance for those sins has already been paid.
haha okay the boys are starting to come online... back from loughborough. off to send various congratulatory messages!
rome?
Mar. 06, 2006, 1:52 pm
erggh. am supposed to be working on dixon plots for last week's monster enzyme practical and on this week's tutorial, but i'm wasting time on the internet instead. louis, you're a bad influence! -glares-
anyways i received a very unexpected gift from friends of my parents... S$1000, which works out to about £330, which means that i can now afford to travel over easter break. it's a shame that i didnt know of it earlier, otherwise i could've planned a trip with mengxin for our birthdays... well in any case someone's going to have a fabulous time with kazu, what with milan and paris and what not *tries not to be jealous* *fails* haha have a good time dearie! i don't know when i can go down to warwick yet, but i -have- to see you and glad this easter break; i miss you all too much. anyway i might head to rome for about a week... all i'll have to pay for is the flight and food/entertainment... accoms and tpt will be nicely taken care of :) very tempting, i know. hehhh.
lecture now, must run. oh yes did i mention my microbiology lecturer will be on strike tomorrow? am quite thrilled by it :)
ordinary people
Mar. 05, 2006, 10:15 am
Girl im in love with you
This ain't the honeymoon
Past the infatuation phase
Right in the thick of love
At times we get sick of love
It seems like we argue everyday
I know i misbehaved
And you made your mistakes
And we both still got room left to grow
And though love sometimes hurts
I still put you first
And we'll make this thing work
But I think we should take it slow
We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cause we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow
This time we'll take it slow
This time we'll take it slow
This ain't a movie no
No fairy tale conclusion ya'll
It gets more confusing everyday
Sometimes it's heaven sent
Then we head back to hell again
We kiss and we make up on the way
I hang up you call
We rise and we fall
And we feel like just walking away
As our love advances
We take second chances
Though it's not a fantasy
I Still want you to stay
We're just ordinary people
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow
This time we'll take it slow
This time we'll take it slow
Take it slow
Maybe we'll live and learn
Maybe we'll crash and burn
Maybe you'll stay, maybe you'll leave,
maybe you'll return
Maybe another fight
Maybe we won't survive
But maybe we'll grow
We never know baby you and I
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Mar. 02, 2006, 5:18 pm
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fantasies and headaches
Feb. 28, 2006, 3:03 pm
wretched, wretched headache. it's funny-- i've been getting good sleep for 9 hours each night for the past 2 days, yet i found myself absolutely knackered at 2pm in the afternoon. so i told myself i'd at least lie down for a bit and hopefully get to sleep a little.
well i didnt fall asleep, and i've got an awful headache now. and i wasn't even in the half-sleep zone. i was more in a stare-at-the-wall-and-zone-out mode and imagining all kinds of weird awful situations in which i'd be able to, in a deliciously eloquent and bitchy way, put some people in their place.
oh fantasies. tutorial in ten minutes, must run.
1331!
Feb. 26, 2006, 11:56 am
photos of natalie's white-themed party at 1331 yesterday! well worth missing fiesta for, if you ask me :D
haha have just realised that all of the pictures contain sunny and johnny in it... what can i say... they make good subjects to be photographed *grin* oh but i like the photo of the 3 of us cos we're all in white! though johnny went with the theme a little too obediently and wore a white shirt and white trousers. very stylish, i know. hahahaha. more photos coming up soon! :)
happy 21st, natalie!! love you XX
of jaffa cakes and being loopy
Feb. 20, 2006, 2:46 pm
and today everything is turned around, my misery on its head and bliss on its feet, and it's divine, it's rare, it's... glorious. it's a wonderful kind of distraction, the best kind of horrible there is. the sweetest awful i could ever have.
will speak to my lime jaffa cake in the strictest confidence, and it will see my heart's in the right place. and then it will offer itself up to be eaten. muahahahhaha. the blackcurrant ones are out of favour, so they will have to be content with sitting half-opened in their box, without the pleasure of my company (and consumption)
victimised
Feb. 19, 2006, 3:17 pm
i don't think i like who i am now. i don't think i like the me that's compromised and settled just because. i don't think i like the me that's stopped dreaming, hoping, wanting.
take me back to the days of silly crushes, secret longings, frivolous whims and whispered secrets.
take me back to the time when i still wanted to hold out for the things i desired; when nothing else would do. when only you would do, and no one else. but then look now at us-- me, i have compromised, i have settled for less than you, and i pay my penance in tears of regret, tears of disappointment. you, you think you got what you want. but are you happy now? by your own admission, no.
so tell me, how is it that we both ended up victimised?
i dont sound very nice in this post
Feb. 17, 2006, 12:22 pm
phew haven't blogged in a while. had a fairly good weekend in leeds, off at the student cup. i think we could've played so much better, but oh well *shrugs* shit happens. i thought i was alright, didnt win too many points for the team (owing to my horrendous lack of ability to spike) but didnt cost the team too many points either, because my receiving was pretty decent. plenty of annoyances at certain individuals, but at least i wasnt the only one.. glad to know that people see what i see, and everything i felt in term one is now justified and proven and i'm no longer alone in thinking the way i do. feel sorry for her now though, because it's obvious that no one's paying too much attention to her anymore, and i'd feel horrible if i were here. i do think she's blind to the fact that she's such a juvenile, immature drama queen who's gotten too big for her shoes... and it's quite bewildering, really, to have everyone kind of cool off towards you. then again, i think soon she'll just do something that will annoy the hell out of everyone and i'll wonder why i was feeling sorry for her. but for now, i feel bad. still, there's no way i'm going to be extra nice to make up for it. after all, it's not my attention she wants, oh no. it's not me.
went clubbing in leeds dressed as baywatch! we all looked really good, mainly cos everyone was wearing white t-shirts with BAYWATCH splashed across the chest, complete with red shorts and whistles and beach balls and all. clubbing in leeds is so much better than in york! went to creation, which is this huuuuuge confusing place with different rooms playing different music. plenty of slimey, greasy, pervy men in the RnB room but i stayed anyway because there was no way i could put myself through trance or cheese in the other rooms. some perv was grinding against my butt *ick* but natalie saved the day. well, sort of. repeated the baywatch theme on wednesday, this time in york and at ziggy's. it's got terrible, terrible music and djs that talk too much, but somehow everyone always manages to have a good time there. matt drove us there and back (YAY!) so at least i saved myself a long walk home in the freezing cold and in a pair of red shorts. pervy black man again at ziggys, and nick saved the day this time. hooray for nick! *grin* we all love nick, dont we. oh met fuzzie at ziggy's, but didnt get to talk to her.
ooh. i made cottage pie yesterday *beam* it was nice, too! chicken, onions, mushrooms, beans and broccoli in their own juices, with some grated cheddar and milk to make a sauce, and plenty of herbs and pepper for flavour... topped with mashed potatoes and grated cheddar. awful lot of work, but well worth it, i say :) 
in other news: royal mail is fucked up. was supposed to receive a parcel on tuesday, but got one of those little "you were out" cards WHEN I WAS IN FACT IN. the doorbell wasn't rung at all. just because the kitchen is empty, it doesnt mean that no one's in! well okay fine so i decided to top up my phone credit and call royalmail and arrange a redelivery. spent 5quid just trying to get through. if you know your fucking call volume is going to be high cos everyone who got let down by silly postmen who dont ring doorbells is calling up to arrange redeliveries, then fucking employ more people to pick up the damn phone! tried for all of tuesday and didnt get through, so on wednesday i got so pissed off i called the complaints hotline instead, where i was patched through immediately (i wonder why. i should think their complaint line would be as busy, given the inefficient tossers they are). anyway i rearranged another delivery on friday, leaving SPECIFIC instructions for the parcel to be delivered STRAIGHT to the porter's lodge so that the porters could sign for it. well guess what? this morning i got yet another card proclaiming in bold at the top : YOU WERE OUT. no, you fucker, i was not! according to your delivery time, i was IN MY ROOM at the time your sorry ass came round to my block instead of to the porter's lodge as it should have, and whilst i was IN MY ROOM i did NOT hear a doorbell ring, nor did i hear any postman call that he was delivering a parcel. and even IF i wasnt in, can you not be arsed to walk an extra fifty metres to the porter's lodge so that they can sign for it? in any case, there were specific instructions for it to be delivered straight to the porters. fucking hell. spent another 2quid+ calling royal mail again (lots smarter this time--just called the complaints line directly. hah.), ranted for a bit in the best english accent i could muster, arranged for a redelivery on monday and PLEADED with the operator to spell out in bold that the package should go straight to the porters. will put up a notice on the kitchen window this sunday night as well:
"if you're a royalmail postman delivering a parcel, PLEASE FUCKING RING THE BLOODY BELL because the kitchen's always empty, BUT THERE ARE PEOPLE IN THE HOUSE. otherwise, have the FUCKING DECENCY to walk 50metres to goodricke, where the porters will sign for it"
well that's enough coarse language for a day now, so i shan't curse anymore for the rest of today. see? everything in moderation. off to pick up my laundry now... college vball against vanbrugh tonight. ugh. can't be arsed to haul myself down to the freezing cold tent. brr.
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